English Honours

This is funny and unbelievable. How confused can one get? The choice of a career is an extremely important one, but in my case this dilemma made me tear my hair out. It gave me sleepless nights along with nightmares! It made me weep and annihilated my self confidence. With poor marks in the Boards and time running out, I’m sure it would have resulted in a nervous breakdown as well. There was a time when I seriously thought about Law, at other times about graduation in Computer Science and then seemed to have made up my mind with Engineering. But now I’m relieved enough to be able to tell myself- “I’m choosing a career totally of my choice”.

I’m going to pursue an Arts course from a prestigious institution. If you people want to laugh, please do. I’m not a sheep neither a buffalo driven by people, the well-wishers, who want me to follow the trend. In pursuit of job- security and money, I would ruin my life. I may not be modern, for I endorse the true meaning of ‘career’ as ‘some service to the society which one is destined to do with all heart and soul throughout one’s life’. Sounds outrageous, doesn’t it? But that’s how it is. I can pour my heart and soul in putting my own thoughts on paper. With all the philosophical and independent thoughts that cross my mind every now and then, I get overwhelmed. I feel I ought to convey my feelings to the whole world. At other times I feel like waking the people of India from their deep slumber through my words.

Yes, you read it right-deep slumber. The urban Indian society of today is changing for the worse, due to various reasons. There are very few who are mature enough to ponder and analyse the lifestyle they lead, a far cry from what is expected of an Indian individual. Those who have the resources and can think beyond food, water and shelter ought to give a part of themselves to the country. But no, corruption is so common that there is no wonder why progress of this ‘mahaan’ nation is so slow. The upper middle class and the affluent too are busy making money. The pub culture is in full swing and youth is addicted to it- that’s the so called ‘fun factor’ attached to it. And unfortunately, the rural public would definitely follow their brothers in the cities. The western influence has played an immense role in this unfortunate ‘revolution’, and how can we ever thank the ‘modern’ Bollywood for it?

When person from a village decides to make fortune in the town, the hurdles and humiliations that would follow would definitely make him street smart. He would learn to play dirty tricks in order to make quick money and follow the easier path. Would he ever learn about the path of truth?
What I mean to say is-today’s generation wants economic independence, and have totally forgotten their duties as a responsible citizen. Also, there are millions of people who are forced to give up a life of idealism due to circumstances. In fact, in short, I can merely state that our society lacks the will, the patriotism and finally the firepower to change the global Indian face.
Oh, I can go on and on about it. If you realise, the above words will be echoed in the minds of many, but do we pause to ponder over it?

There are people who have done it. The story of Rang de Basanti was written by someone who shared my views (although the movie had a few flaws in it as well). So reader, do I still need to convey where my future lies? - It is here, in my diary. With English Honours, I will only be going deeper into this familiar language and helping my cause.